ode to you~

it's sad to think that.. when we end our long time relationship.. we are not only hurting ourselves, but we are also hurting the people around us... I don't know why does it take me too long to realize this.. And I'm so sorry.. :(

It's not that I don't want to contact you more often.. But something hold me back from doing it.. I actually think that you might not need me anymore.. Cause I know he's gonna bring someone else to replace me.. :( And, and, what would your family thinks of me? Since me and him, we are no longer together, I'm actually afraid that they would say like, "What the heck is she doing here! Is she still not over him?" or something like that.. *all the negative thoughts.. :( sigh.. *

Just so you know, I have never... never ever EVER treat anyone like I did to you.. You are so special! You're not only my "ex-boyfriend's sister".. You are like my own sister.. It's like a blessing you know.. I can spoil you, make you laugh, have a fight with you *as long as it all ends well >_< *you know, all the sisterly stuff!*

I really do miss all the things we did together.. The movie times, jalan2 shopping, you 'paw-ing' me, me bullying you.. hehehe... The memory I fond most is the time we spent to paint your house.. That was like years ago.. =_= *hope u still keep the picture! print it!! ;p * habes sampai ke muka2 cat tuh.. hahahaha!! when I'm with you, I kinda become a whole different person.. *okay, I admit.. I become childish* hahaha! I was enjoying the whole time we had.. cause only after I meet you, I know what it's like to have a little sister of my own.. :)

And I thank you that you treasure me in your heart.. :) I really appreciate it..
And I actually miss you so much!

And, even if I am with someone else, I will make him treat you like you are my sis! so, Mr R, please spoil her like I do!~ :)

I was hoping that I could come to KL just to meet you.. Tapi belum ade rezeki lagi.. I did went to KL before, but I was with my dad.. And we are only there for few hours, to take his Orked stocks.. :( mane puas nak spend time together sejam dua je! Movie mau2 da 2 jam lebih! huhuhu... nanti, ade peluang, InsyaAllah kite berjumpe ok sayang.. :)

last but not least,

likeisaidbefore,nomatterwhathappenyouwillalwaysbemylittlesisterforlife!!! :)

xoxo,
kak shikeen yg chomel lagi cun & bergaya! ;p

p/s: still remember the time we spend together in Pangkor.. :) It was a blast! We should go for holiday together.. tapi kene tunggu La abes skolah perhaps.. ;p love you sayang!

p.p/s: i love making you laugh.. it's the only thing i'm good at.. hehe